Curiousity

In a moment your life can fall to pieces
In a moment your life can be picked up according to thesis
but then again all you can really do is hope
Although it feels like i'm always at the end of my rope
Like failing is all i can do and my life is a waste
It's like i wanna disappear without a trace
Then i take a look at my miserable reality
Filled with corruption and profanity
Trying my best to turn it into a sweet fantasy
but still i feel like my life is just another calamity
The pain and insecurities could drive me to insanity
Like all reality this world is full of stuck ups and their vanity
I'm just the guy tryin his best to get by
but it feels like i'm not good enough no matter how hard i try
I feel as if i could be so much more than who i am
I feel as if i'll always be alone and no one will ever give a damn
Everyday i wonder where exactly do i stand
If i can even get through the task at hand
To escape this life that's corrupt and bland
All i want if for someone to say they'll stay
To stop feeling like i have go astray
To stop being forced to pray
To choose the endings of my day
All things i have to say seem like they'll never be heard
All because i'm still a kid and everything i say just seems absurd
I've tried so hard to escape my horrid past
But it just seems like i'll never last
The pain haunts me almost everyday
The pain of living behind a mask
A happy ending is all i ask
To feel the joy of a real smile
To feel as if life is worth all the while
Where is that happiness they write about in books?
I can never seem to find it anywhere i look
Where is the truth we all seek?
Why are we all stuck in a world so faded and bleak?
Where are the dreams we once had?
Why are our ambitions replaced with a future so sad?
Where is the voice we need when we try to talk?
Why is time we need shown on a broken clock?
Why do we question the trust we have in our friends?
Why do we tend to choose the path that never ends?
Why is it that we are oblivious to those who care?
Why is that life is so unjust and unfair?
Where does the one real answer lie?
Where is the hope we once shared?
Why is that we always have to be cautious and aware?
What happened to the safety we once felt?
Why is it that pain is all we are dealt?
Where is the shelter of which we humbly ask?
Why is this world filled with useless opinions rather than facts?
Why are we so afraid of what we don't understand?
Why is it bad for a girl to love a girl, and man to love a man?
Why do we discriminate others because they aren't the same?
Why do we cuss, fight, hurt, and maim?
Why can't the world see that we are all of one kind?
Why is it so wrong to want to speak your mind?